SUMBER

I feel light as a feather in a matter in which I feel completely weird, not like yesterday. I felt as hard as a rock, a sinking rock that was falling into the deepest depths of the ocean. Though that's not to say I was depressed, just extremely mad as in crazy feeling but angry crazy because there was no rational thing for it - now, I think it's because I didn't have coffee? Coffee Deprivation makes me Angry? That would mean I truly do have an addiction, and I think that is one of the symptoms, like as if I can't let go of that particular drink for a day. That means I really need to teach my body to become cool in the mind without having such drink. If you never heard of coffee addiction, it is a real thing but it's not serious just seriously annoying that it might make me feel dependent to it . In order to make me feel good. I hadn't had a day without it until yesterday, other days...if I hadn't had coffee for a day and felt like the way I had yester...

Every single time I try to lose weight, I become angry and annoyed more than ever before - if a lot of things made me angry before now I feel ten times as much infuriated. I just can't stand for a single thing and I know I'm not actually angry with these simple things like it's just that...I guess, I hate trying to lose weight. Mood Swings? Maybe? I literally woke up feeling angry and annoyed and I didn't know why, I ate food thinking that would resolve my mood...maybe it's because I hadn't had my sweet and bitter coffee, and instead I am having a Monster Rehab Lemonade Tea. But nothing has helped it. Now, I've grown a headache and it's been an hour or so, lasting and I have no Advil or Tylenol or whatever the likes. Of course, being at work, I ca keep it cool but in the inside I feel monstrous. Now, I've been thinking that my current favored songs by favored artists would soothe me: Fake Love by BTS, The Dark of You by Breaking Benjamin...

As I had shared, I had went to the navy - though still some hasn't changed (my nervousness for the apparently easy ASVAB that I fear that my knowledge is too low on the mathematics department and I'm not sure about my memorization skills. I've never been good at tests, at least studying a day prior - hated hearing that the people who passed hadn't even studied. It's like hearing a skinny girl forgetting to eat.) It's about the measurement on my waist - I could had sworn that one of the navy people there had measured me and told me my waist size was at 36 inches and that the least I need to get to is either 31 or 32 inches. My weight having gone there was at 172.4. After that I started eating less and watching my carb intake and the foods I ate. Then I started exercising and I bought a tape measurer and waist trainer (but I guess it's two or three times larger than my normal size that I have to buy because I have a huge bust - can't fit a Medium or...

I could be a lot more stressed. Indeed. Absolutely irritable and tired on my lady thing, started it yesterday - men don't get it - but I just want to smash all the phones, with the flood of calls, fandango acting quite ridiculous - my password and e-mail not working for a minute. I'm craving sweets even though I'm on a no-carb or less-carb diet (less-sodium as well), and its making me a bit more irritated. All I want to do is sleep. Plus, I exercised yesterday, cramped all up around my pelvis and thighs area. Now, I need to stretch before I workout, and do another 15 to 30 minute exercise, and sweat. But what's more is this Union Test Prep and studying for the ASVAB and then questions about the number requirements of minimal astigmatism - because they said I couldn't have it, but if I have an extremely low number does it matter still? Also still trying to reach that waist goal for the Navy. And doing the polishing touch-ups for my book that I hope to ge...

In my writing, I had changed it so much in re-writing, trying to make it have depth, showing more when it's necessary and telling when its necessary. And rethinking the idea of having a prologue period. And I had made that decision last night, there's no prologue. The reason I made that decision is that, first book series should focus more on he protagonist rather than the antagonist so I changed what I had written. Plus, many articles and writing agents ask to know about the main character. Though the antagonist is important, I can't get into him until the parts that are necessary. So, I made that decision. Plus in the Query it'll have the 1st chapter, about the MC, and I feel like it is interesting... But my self-doubt is starting to get in the way, when I was enthused about editing my work...I think the helper is busy but the back of my mind says that they lost interest in helping me and the fact that my writing is what it is or how it had been (telling rather...

I've worked at not "many" jobs: a cashier in this grocery story to front-end supervisor with the same pay: only because I don't smile as much as Pay-O-Lah. But I felt that that was favoritism. I knew and noticed the actions of other workers, this guy who was friends with a manager but not the hiring manager, per se. (Though, honestly, I think those three white men were friends.) And the stocking manager had a crush on her, Pay-Oh, Lah, because I've overheard him say she was cute...Though she was 17 at the time but then in a week she was 18. And I heard a supervisor say with her cheery voice, "you need to find someone your age." That was while I was still a cashier and she was only working there for a few days when she suddenly got promoted - I bet with a higher pay. But some of those mofos never actually told me their rate of pay. (not all jobs prohibit you and force you to be exclusive in that particular intel)...But thats gossip....Back to the topic.....

Jahrhundert mean Century, Jahr is Year, Hundert is Hundred You know how long a Century is and won't get confused by that in German: it's a hundred years. And September and November - Und September und November But what does Wiehnachten mean separaptely (Christmas: is the meaning as a whole; but what about "Wieh" and "nachten"?) I wanted to learn German and French along Spanish (but that's because of relatives) for a long time. Duolingo is great. I should write something more meaningful but not right now.

Pretty Little Liars was based on a series of novels by Sara Shepherd, though I hadn't read it, I want to. Typically, if you read the book first, your judgement is biased and you might not enjoy the show as much. So, assuming how television is, the hair color, eye color, scenes, character choices, and storylines are changed. Like the Vampire Diaries reviews I've read, they preferred the show over the book (but I can't say that it's anything similar for I hadn't read others reviews), it could also be like Shadowhunters (the mortal instruments series) though I had preferred the books, the television show is good but very different from the books in a lot of ways. What I know about the show, is its about a missing friend and the four girls join together only after they had found something, believing it to be a murder. And then they start receiving messages from this person called "A". Learning this about them  and their lives, something that they would...

For the sentence placement, it seems to be verb and then pronoun. From what I had learned on Duolingo. In July we eat fish Im Juli essen wir Fisch Note that nouns are always capitalized, like "Juli" and "Fisch" Im - In Juli - July Essen - Eat Wir - We Fisch - Fish As I had discussed in a separate post, many of the German words look and sound similar in English, that's why I feel we adopted a lot of German words and reformed them. August - August Sommer - Summer Sonne - Sun And a confusing sentence: Im Sommer scheint die Sonne. The Sun is shining in summer - the correct way. But it looks like it could be said like In summer shining the sun Or In the Summer the sun is shining Im der Sommer die Sonner scheint - is how that might actually be said... The summer sun is shining In Summer shines the sun - is how it literally looks like. If you're going to write out your sentences on your own, or attempt to write in this...

I was thinking about how every time I attempt to write out a plan of a routine for myself, I end up never following it. Here's what a typical day might look like: Wake up at 1:15pm, give the cats food if both bowls are empty, if not; greet cats only and head on to kitchen and make breakfast for 15 to 30 minutes and watch something on Hulu for about 1 hour and write some or play on android. Take shower at 3pm and go to work at 3:50 Work from 4pm to 8pm Eat Dinner, take care of cats, watch some stuff, write: all for about 4 to 6 hour  Go to bed either and/or between at 12 midnight or 3am Wake at 5am to help preparation for breakfast, go back to sleep at 6am, and do everything all over again. That's a free flowing schedule, one that is easy to follow. But a strict one, I cannot maintain or consider, I like the easy going morning/afternoon 1pm to 3:50pm schedule...but, I might have a better schedule for myself if I can put myself to bed earlier and wake an hour or...

I know English is a language that has adopted other languages' words and sort of, if at all, reformed them. I can say that April is April in German. Blut is Blood in German. So we've reformed the word, from them. (Rather the ancestors of the English language, speaking as though all who speak the English tongue are part of the same language holding family.) Some but few words in Spanish sound similar in English, same with French. It seems, the English origins came from many, if not all, Latin formulated languages. Which is a well known fact, I just find it absolutely interesting. It makes me wonder, did a french person, Spanish person, German, Italian, and so on peoples just sat down in a table and was like, "we should make a language that consist of words similar to each of our tongue and it will be the new Latin bastard language." (using the term bastard language because 1) a Hindi friend said it like that and 2) there was a form of a bastard Latin and a class...

I was and still mostly am, considering joining the Navy Careers which isn't exactly the same (from what I thought I've been told) as the Navy Sailors per se. As in, it's Business Administration, Culinary and The Arts, Mass Communication and Photography, Musician, and other types of jobs...It's not specialized in hardcore physical and armed combat, I would be trained in other matters. And its not exactly on the field.... Except there was an article (on multiple trusted sources) that a woman who was a combat photographer (mass communication and photography) that had died taking photos of soldier trainees, and a bomb went off and they showed those photos in every article. It was three, an explosion blast of white and orange, sand scattering and burning, soldiers standing obviously not knowing what was about to happen. And they had died. And the article claimed that that career is possibly one of the most dangerous. A friend told me that it's rare. I think that m...

As of right now, I am writing a book - rather I've written all of it but it's on its on its sand paper stage before I get to the wax and polish. Though I do wish for it to be traditionally published which means getting a writing agent and sending these agents a query letter which is difficult to actually perfect. (pur-feh-ct not pur-fict [what a strange word]) And all I can ever get myself to write are the next planned installments or short stories that would correlate to that world or a certain book. I try to write other stories that have nothing to do with the world I'm actually passionate about but I either feel not enthused or make a really crappy plot for that story. I'll give you an example of some crappy idea that I will not write at all (because its not developed and I have no passion for it) It's called: Given Up Too Soon [Ironic, is it not?] It's about this 40 year of age woman named Nicole who never had a good relationship and hardly an...

I was just looking at a thumbnail for a Youtuber Kelsey Ellison - Sister of House Black, I hadn't watched what it is actually about but the curly black haired girl reminded me of Bellatrix Black and was the mother of Draco Malfoy - the white haired girl (Narcissa Black)and according to Wiki: Andromeda Tonks was their third sister. I need to watch this to see if thats who she's referencing. I would love there to be a tale of those three sisters, how one went crazy, the other a full-blood  supremacist (maybe?) , and the third a girl who is very much different from her other sisters. The fact that they kind of had delve into the Black's Family tree, just would make one a tad interested in their tale. And then Sirius Black too. Like, I would prefer a television show, honestly. These days, they're having the worst to the possibly bad, actually mediocre, and very, very few legitimately good. I think a live-action television show would be great. Put it on HBO and they...

Circle and hands turn Watching or living daily Until it closes

This is an application I had found on the Google Play Store App, they have Live Portrait Maker: Male and Live Portrait Maker [which is for female]. It has generated things like eye and eye shape/eyelash, eyebrows, nose, skin, et cetera and ability to change color and shape and placement. For both apps, though limited on clothes and style of hair, if I wanted to change the color on the other side or make streaks or blemishes (excluding freckles: they have freckles) then I would have to photoshop that into the picture. But I could make hundreds of different looks, possibly thousands, but the appearance may look no more than 16 to 18 - maybe in the twenties. So, I couldn't make the character look older than how I would like them to be. But its a good app and very enjoyable. I give it a 5/5.

Not quite yet, by the fifteenth, just about in the middle. People are acknowledging when anything that happens that isn't about Trump being a distraction, but why not distract yourself sometimes? The sameness gets a little dull and you don't have to immerse yourself in whether they are saying "Laurel" or "Yanny". Like I heard, its both anyway and depends on which frequency you are hearing it. A lower frequency it says Laurel but a slightly higher frequency it says Yanny. If you've watched The Fine Brothers play it, I heard both at the same exact time at one point and it sounded like Lyannaurly. It was weird as a horse's defecation! Its always both at the same time. It's like no one heard of the double painted face story. Moving on, earlier in the year they had cheesy memes but that were stupid and amusing for a short while. Now, I hadn't been listening to it for months because I'm not a huge fan of the "meme culture". I...

Henry was a boy, who believed in tales He knew of Pinocchio and the whales He went to school with Hansel and Gretyl Mom was not his blood; that love need a fill He grabbed his mom and there it all began Faith needed; he had done all that he can By an Apple Dessert he fainted, and Break the curse, kiss is made; but no new land Storybook stayed and new people came there And over time some had gone; life wasn't fair Regina was not evil as we thought Forever, it was love that she had sought In the end, she had but it was Henry Story last, he found his new family

Those petals yellow Shapes a great variety Green stem and a leaf 

Gazing upon those faces Seeing they've went to places Internet gazer Not a web stalker But I know they're all aces Just thinking about the fact that we all look at peoples facebook pages or whatever else internet social media that is available. Because we are all just curious folk. But nobody likes to admit it.

There once was a girl who was quite petite, had a 2000's era haircut, short and slightly curled. She always held her chin up high, her shoulder straight when she sat and when she walked. Her skin was almost porcelain and her hair was platinum blonde. She was super thin and in high school, I want to say I thought she had either big blue eyes (maybe brown) and that she might always carried a luggage. We were in Health Class together once, and we were to make a poster together along with someone else, she didn't like anybody else's penmanship except her own. (Don't judge me for being curious, and mistake for anything other than curiosity. We are all curious- though, it is sometimes a waste of time when it's fruitless.) The thing about her is I can't recall her name, nor had I had ever seen her with anyone, I can't remember if she had any friends but I was much curious about her. She was cute and beautiful, I wondered if her personality fit her appeara...

You know in your mind is a little distant whispering voice that speaks, sometimes you don't need that voice - which is yours - to finish a complete thought, you know what you were thinking of. But sometimes, you should complete your thought, consider the words in which you would say them. Knowing the words and how to describe this thought. Thinking can be fun, thinking can be dreadful, thinking can get hazy, thinking can be sad, or mad, or even make you glad. Thinking can give you all kinds of emotions but that does depend on what you think about. Sometimes, I think about my past of what could had been if certain events never occurred and predicting the scenario of what might had been. Which can either depress me, bore me, or make me want to write about it. Sometimes, I think about vocabulary words, grammar, punctuation and how I can better my writing. Sometimes, I think about the few religions and practices that I really know about, like: chistainity, catholicism, wic...

My eyes roll inside my head Choking, I might end up dead The joke was funny Look you're a dummy You've fallen across the bed

A gust that blows far Flowing, breathing, chilling me In the air for now Check out my "Fire" Haiku at: https://sumberleonviva.wordpress.com/2018/06/05/haiku-fire/

Bienvenido - is saying good I come - Bien "good" and venido "I/he/she/they/we have come". It means, "welcome" in spanish. The conjugation of venir - "yo vengo" - I come. Hello, welcome to my other blog site (sumberleonviva.wordpress.com). I am trying out different layouts, since, it had been years since I've tried out blogger and my tumblr is more reblogs than actual blogs (omnebonum.tumblr.com) I hadn't known that sumber is a word in another language, apparently is Malay for source/resource. Leon is spanish for Lion, Viva is spanish for Life. And I thought Sumber sounded cool. But i believe it would translate to - Resource/Source Lion Life but this blog has nothing to do with Lions, I just really like lions. Like how youtubers Rhett and Link - Good Mythical Morning - isn't so mythical; just weird. I want to use this blog to express things, to try out different forms of writing, like reviews and poems and a kind of journalism...